Is she still there? Is she still herself? What's wrong with her? Is she okay? How do you get through hard times? Do you cry? Do you binge-watch TV? Do you eat? There are so many ways to get through hard times. All counselors always talk about coping skills and good coping. Mine, was the … Continue reading Hard Times
What if I wake up blind?Will I end up in a wheelchair?Am I going to be paralyzed?What if no one will love me?What if no one will take care of me?What if people don't want to deal with me?What if I become a burden?What if I pass this on to my children?What if, what if, … Continue reading (part one) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis
So...who am I? My entire personality was around alcohol. My life was consumed around alcohol. Every activity I did or place I went was about alcohol. When I removed the alcohol, what was I left with? I had to find it. I had to find who I was. What other option was there? I began … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 3.
People think that when someone is overcoming an addiction, the hardest part is quitting the substance. But from my experience, the hardest part wasn't quitting; it was dealing with all of the things that were hidden for so long that began to surface all at once. The things that made people want to go back … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 2.
So I asked myself, do I need help? Do I have a problem? No, I can't have a problem. Let me just cut down on my drinking now that I see I might be drinking too much. I'll stop for a while. Guess what? I made it 10 days with no alcohol. On that 10th … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 1.
I'm living my best life!! And I'm killing it!! Oh yes....here it comes, right on time. The spiral of realization. Damn, I'm kinda lonely in this city. This sucks, I guess I should go get some wine and just hang out by myself and listen to music, draw, paint, have a good time. There's no … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 3.