How was I supposed to feel? Then the "why me" question set in. Why did this happen to me? I'm a good person. I have always been kind to others. Why would this happen to me? I went and saw the neurologist (I swear it felt like everything happened within a day, maybe that was … Continue reading (part two) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis
What if I wake up blind?Will I end up in a wheelchair?Am I going to be paralyzed?What if no one will love me?What if no one will take care of me?What if people don't want to deal with me?What if I become a burden?What if I pass this on to my children?What if, what if, … Continue reading (part one) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis
“When we learn how to become resilient, we learn how to embrace the beautifully broad spectrum of the human experience.”― Jaeda Dewalt Painful experiences and emotional trauma are at the core of making us human. But what happens when those painful experiences or emotional trauma seem like they are too much, or more excessive than … Continue reading trauma and emotional pain can build your #resiliency
How do you know if you have a long distance friendship, or if your friendship is dwindling away? Long distance anythings are difficult, especially when it comes to friendships. I know some people would beg to differ and say romantic relationships are harder, but hear me out. With romantic relationships, they are extremely difficult, but … Continue reading long distance #friends?
We all know realistically that the relationships you see in movies are far from the truth. We all know that those romantic fairytales may happen, but they happen far and few in between. Yet we still want that from our partners. We want that romance, that fire, that passion, that excitement. But what happens when … Continue reading the unrealistic expectations of a #soulmate
So...who am I? My entire personality was around alcohol. My life was consumed around alcohol. Every activity I did or place I went was about alcohol. When I removed the alcohol, what was I left with? I had to find it. I had to find who I was. What other option was there? I began … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 3.
So I asked myself, do I need help? Do I have a problem? No, I can't have a problem. Let me just cut down on my drinking now that I see I might be drinking too much. I'll stop for a while. Guess what? I made it 10 days with no alcohol. On that 10th … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 1.
I'm living my best life!! And I'm killing it!! Oh yes....here it comes, right on time. The spiral of realization. Damn, I'm kinda lonely in this city. This sucks, I guess I should go get some wine and just hang out by myself and listen to music, draw, paint, have a good time. There's no … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 3.
So, I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm being smart and logical. I'm taking care of myself. I'm an adult, I can drink. It's what adults do. I'm not getting into any trouble. It's the holidays, it's sports season, it's brunch, it's happy hour. I feel happy when I drink, don't I want to be happy? … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 2.
It's crazy how long I went without realizing that I had any problem with drinking. Whenever I thought of an "alcoholic", I thought of someone homeless, who burnt all bridges with everyone in their life, and walking around with a 40 in a brown paper bag. Such a misconception...and also pretty rude that I thought … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 1.