People think that when someone is overcoming an addiction, the hardest part is quitting the substance. But from my experience, the hardest part wasn't quitting; it was dealing with all of the things that were hidden for so long that began to surface all at once. The things that made people want to go back … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 2.
So I asked myself, do I need help? Do I have a problem? No, I can't have a problem. Let me just cut down on my drinking now that I see I might be drinking too much. I'll stop for a while. Guess what? I made it 10 days with no alcohol. On that 10th … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 1.
Put a smile on and pretend to be okay even when it feels like your world it falling apart. Tell everyone you're fine when they ask how you're doing and stick with that story. Receive constructive criticism with a smile even when it feels like you're being attacked. Respond "no worries!" to a text that … Continue reading the girl with the hidden #insecurities
I'm living my best life!! And I'm killing it!! Oh yes....here it comes, right on time. The spiral of realization. Damn, I'm kinda lonely in this city. This sucks, I guess I should go get some wine and just hang out by myself and listen to music, draw, paint, have a good time. There's no … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 3.
Remember when we were teenagers and our parents/caregivers would tell us "no", and we would throw a fit or sneak off and do it anyways? Remember when we would get upset with our parents for not having the right food in the house? (wtf was wrong with us) Remember when we would go to sleep … Continue reading stages of #adulting.
There is that famous saying that we all know too well, "love is blinding". I interpret that saying as you ignore and look past the red flags because your emotions of love begin to outweigh your mind and logic. But who are we to question someone's love or relationship? Let's say you are in a … Continue reading who are we to question someone’s relationship?
So, I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm being smart and logical. I'm taking care of myself. I'm an adult, I can drink. It's what adults do. I'm not getting into any trouble. It's the holidays, it's sports season, it's brunch, it's happy hour. I feel happy when I drink, don't I want to be happy? … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 2.
“To live, to TRULY live, we must be willing to RISK. To be nothing in order to find everything. To leap before we look.” Leaps of faith are terrifying. I read a quick story about an older sister trying to teach her younger sister how to dive into a pool. And at this same time, … Continue reading take that leap of #faith
It's crazy how long I went without realizing that I had any problem with drinking. Whenever I thought of an "alcoholic", I thought of someone homeless, who burnt all bridges with everyone in their life, and walking around with a 40 in a brown paper bag. Such a misconception...and also pretty rude that I thought … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 1.