What do you do when you start feeling out of control? No longer having control of your thoughts, actions, and behaviors. No longer having control over your own body. You can no longer control the negative thoughts consuming your mind, or the inability to get out of bed, or the irritability towards other people. You … Continue reading When You No Longer Have Control of Your Depression
Hard Times
Is she still there? Is she still herself? What's wrong with her? Is she okay? How do you get through hard times? Do you cry? Do you binge-watch TV? Do you eat? There are so many ways to get through hard times. All counselors always talk about coping skills and good coping. Mine, was the … Continue reading Hard Times
Depression Build-up
It's not even noticeable at first. It's something that goes unrecognized. Something that a woman could just contribute to hormones, something a person can think is situational. Until it isn't. For me, I was in counseling and working on building myself up for years. I grew into a person who became happy. It started with … Continue reading Depression Build-up

(part two) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis
How was I supposed to feel? Then the "why me" question set in. Why did this happen to me? I'm a good person. I have always been kind to others. Why would this happen to me? I went and saw the neurologist (I swear it felt like everything happened within a day, maybe that was … Continue reading (part two) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis

(part one) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis
What if I wake up blind?Will I end up in a wheelchair?Am I going to be paralyzed?What if no one will love me?What if no one will take care of me?What if people don't want to deal with me?What if I become a burden?What if I pass this on to my children?What if, what if, … Continue reading (part one) being diagnosed with #multiple sclerosis

trauma and emotional pain can build your #resiliency
“When we learn how to become resilient, we learn how to embrace the beautifully broad spectrum of the human experience.”― Jaeda Dewalt Painful experiences and emotional trauma are at the core of making us human. But what happens when those painful experiences or emotional trauma seem like they are too much, or more excessive than … Continue reading trauma and emotional pain can build your #resiliency

the secret life of a #counselor
Finding a counselor is one of the hardest things in my opinion, it's almost like finding your other half. Someone you can openly talk to without feeling any judgement, someone who understands you communication style and can reciprocate it, and someone who you just simply vibe with. You will never get the full benefits of … Continue reading the secret life of a #counselor

emotional suppression to #eruption
"If you put a lid on a boiling pot, eventually the contents will rise to the top and spill over. Human emotions are no different. If we push our feelings down and down and try to avoid them, eventually, they will explode out more fiercely than before." - Lindsay Dodgson Emotions are never set in … Continue reading emotional suppression to #eruption

the process of getting sober, part 3.
So...who am I? My entire personality was around alcohol. My life was consumed around alcohol. Every activity I did or place I went was about alcohol. When I removed the alcohol, what was I left with? I had to find it. I had to find who I was. What other option was there? I began … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 3.

the process of getting sober, part 2.
People think that when someone is overcoming an addiction, the hardest part is quitting the substance. But from my experience, the hardest part wasn't quitting; it was dealing with all of the things that were hidden for so long that began to surface all at once. The things that made people want to go back … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 2.