So...who am I? My entire personality was around alcohol. My life was consumed around alcohol. Every activity I did or place I went was about alcohol. When I removed the alcohol, what was I left with? I had to find it. I had to find who I was. What other option was there? I began … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 3.
People think that when someone is overcoming an addiction, the hardest part is quitting the substance. But from my experience, the hardest part wasn't quitting; it was dealing with all of the things that were hidden for so long that began to surface all at once. The things that made people want to go back … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 2.
So I asked myself, do I need help? Do I have a problem? No, I can't have a problem. Let me just cut down on my drinking now that I see I might be drinking too much. I'll stop for a while. Guess what? I made it 10 days with no alcohol. On that 10th … Continue reading the process of getting sober, part 1.
Put a smile on and pretend to be okay even when it feels like your world it falling apart. Tell everyone you're fine when they ask how you're doing and stick with that story. Receive constructive criticism with a smile even when it feels like you're being attacked. Respond "no worries!" to a text that … Continue reading the girl with the hidden #insecurities
I'm living my best life!! And I'm killing it!! Oh yes....here it comes, right on time. The spiral of realization. Damn, I'm kinda lonely in this city. This sucks, I guess I should go get some wine and just hang out by myself and listen to music, draw, paint, have a good time. There's no … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 3.
So, I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm being smart and logical. I'm taking care of myself. I'm an adult, I can drink. It's what adults do. I'm not getting into any trouble. It's the holidays, it's sports season, it's brunch, it's happy hour. I feel happy when I drink, don't I want to be happy? … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 2.
It's crazy how long I went without realizing that I had any problem with drinking. Whenever I thought of an "alcoholic", I thought of someone homeless, who burnt all bridges with everyone in their life, and walking around with a 40 in a brown paper bag. Such a misconception...and also pretty rude that I thought … Continue reading the process of realizing a drinking problem, part 1.